Dear My Birthday

I'm not going to post any my works for today. Today, i'm trying to write my brief story of life. I hope i can always be reminded by the name of time.

Back to 22 years ago, one ordinary family living in a modest flat in Pulomas located in East Jakarta with a sufficient economic background. 

That time, a greatest mom was nearly facing her time to deliver her baby while a wise father was in hurried carry her wife and his little 3 years old son to the nearby hospital in East Jakarta. Luckily, on that urgent situations, an old toyota corrola DX was capable enough to be driven to carry them to the nearby hospital. I don't know precisely how the situation was, but i believed at the time Alverina Agusta located in Jalan Pemuda No.80, Rawamangun, Jakarta was relatively an old-fashioned hospital for maternity hospital. Conventional way was decided to deliver their  second son. That surgery room was fulfilled with a emotional felling of those couple. Continuos encouragement given by a father, and so massive effort by a mother  that time, was successfully giving birth to Me. My first voice (cry) made both of them so happy as if for all painful moment is forgotten. That day accounts to another history for their family.. 

As time passed by...

Today, December 5, 2011...

I'm becoming 22 years old.

Should i feel happy or sad  to be grown up so fast? how about the other people who celebrating their birthday today ? i do wish you had a blessed day.. !  wish you all have a higher quality of live for year ahead..

However,

My childhood has been leaving me far away and so my teenage time.

Now i'm facing my maturity phase, the phase where i'm beginning to hold my own responsibility and plan for my vision of life.

What i've done so far to make my parents pride ? They have been supporting me for 22 years  so  i could stand by myself today regardless of the money matter.

Im now counting and comparing to my achievements and my failures that obviously lead to my parents feeling. So far as im realized, there were too much failures on me rather than the achievements. I remember on the time my father enrolled me to many tuitions that can built me as what his expected talented boy. I was registered in  English school, Music school (Vocal, Keyboard, Piano), Intensive University's preparation.  Im honestly not a kind of person with high intelligence and thus i need to be discipline and wisely manage my time to strive following whatever i need to do. But the fact was i failed to make a good results . It was like i'm only wasting my father's money  and so my chance. I was unable to apply whatever  i've learned on that tuitions. I couldn't play any musical instruments, i had no improvement in my english moreover to my public speaking. I couldn't pass the test to enter my favorite university, and so on so forth...

YA ALLAH,  IM RUNNING OUT MY TIME. WHY AM I KEEPING DOING THESE BAD THINGS ?  DONT I REALIZE  MY PARENTS ALREADY ON THEIR OLD AGE.  DO I HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO FIX ALL MY PASTS THAT ALWAYS DISAPPOINT THEM ? 

PLEASE LEAD ME THE WAY TO MAKE THEM PRIDE IN THIS YEAR. DON'T EVER LET ME  FALL IN THE SAME MISTAKES. PLEASE EASE MY WAY TO FIND MY TALENT SOON AND MY PARENT'S HAPPINESS.  ALLOW ME TO BE WORTHWHILE MAN TO OTHER PEOPLE

* i wish to you Allah... Amin amin ya RabbalAlamin..

GO FORTH !

Sunday 4th September 2011 was my last day before leaving my lovely family  to continue my postgraduate study in Malaysia. M.Rizki Adinugraha (Nugie) as my best friend suddenly called me while i was busy packing all my stuffs.

these were our conversation in Bahasa Indonesia..

Nugie : JAHOMM !!

Me     : HOII SOBB !!

Nugie : Lo lgi di rumah kan ? gue lagi di jalan menuju ke rumah lo ni...

Me     : Kagak, gue lagi di puncak ! , hahaha.. di rumah lah sobb, secara besok pagi gue mesti brangkat ke    malay...

Nugie : Demi apa ?! buru" amatt lo !  santai aja dlu udahh ! tiket lo batalin dlu, cari lgi buat hari selasanya.. 

Me    : wanjingg ! hahaa... kagak bisaa sobb. hari seninnya harus ke kampus gue, pembukaan pendaftaran mahasiswa baru dsana cmn sehari aja...

Nugie : Sehari doang buat pendaftaran ?  hmm.... yaudah gue ke rumah lo dulu ya. nanggung ini udh di jalan. sekalian farewell ama lo deh..

Me : hahaha.. bisa bisa bisa. Makanan sisa lebaran kmrin masih banyak juga tuh di rumah gue. ada kambing guling + kue Harvest lohh ...

Nugie : Nahh itu dia yg emang hrus lo siapin buat tamu special kayak gue ! haha... sobb sbenernya gue udah bawa bnyak baju ni. Tolong fotoin gue bentar yaa klo sempett !! oke oke oke.. .!?

Me : hmmm bnyak banget mau lo ! haha.. Insya Allah klo sempet yee... cmn lo harus bantuin gue packing juga ya !

Nugie : hahahah ! gampanngg, gue kan emang udah biasa jadi kuli bangunan  ! (LOH?!)

Me : hahaa.. yaudah buru kemari deh. gue tunggu yaa.. klo udah dteng langsung masukk aja sobb. biasanya ada om gue di dpan rumah. dia kan udah tau lo.. jadi langsung masuk aja. soalnya gue sibukk banget ni..

Nugie : Siappp masbro !!

30 minutes after this conversation, my mom shout my name. She said someone is coming. Is that nugie ? i told him already just come in, doesn't need to honk his car. Unexpectedly, it wasn't him instead Aldry came with 5 boxes of burger klenger in his hand. He is my model and his photo was selected in some magazine which was i took for him. he would like to give his appreciation to me. Thanks brother.. !

1 hour later, finally nugie came to my house. he was quite unhelpful, since he kept on talking non sense like he used to. haha... kidding nug!   He was encouraging me all the time, he told his experience when he was in Australia. I always remember his words, don't ever spent your energy in making excuse and assumption ! just go forth for whatever you faced now !  

Time passed so quickly,  it was already 8 pm..  and without wasting time i gave direction to nugie to be ready for his photo session. that time, i used one flash positioned back to give the light leak.

Viola ! these were our results...

See you soon buddy ! 

 

Attribute to GYP

YEAY ! it's been two months a week  and four day i didn't update my blog..  HIP HIP HURAAAYY !

Recently, my life can be said too stagnant and like *dead man walking (stupid words)..

How i can manage my time to be consistent updating my blog while as a postgraduate student with all assignments keep on slapping my face, squeezing my brain, and paling my day !... oh GOD i do miss my life without assignments !

YES ! i've been ignoring my camera, left in in my cupboard with all dust covering the bag. I have no time to hug my camera, and bringing him around to the interesting place as well as pointing to the beautiful girl a.k.a. model. I believe my Lightrooms and Photoshops cry every day. They also envy to Microsoft Words, Excel, and Power Point since they are now accompanying me for the whole days, weeks, months.

*Dear Lightrooms and Photoshop, I do never meant to be close friend with them for sure. They forced me to do so. Please forgive me...

NO ! tonight is not  really my independence day. There will be 4 assignments, 2 tests, 2 presentations waiting for me on the next two week. What a miserable life ! T_T

NOW ! i am recalling my life when i was studying my undergraduate as bachelor technology specially on my final semester. That time, i was a bit busy with my final research. However, i do have a free time and i would gather with my friends who have a same desire and passionate to photography. They are well-known with  name GYP (Gen Youth Photohunter). They were very awesome and willing to share any new techniques to other members. That time, i was the only one from Indonesia, but they were welcoming me as i am part of their family. We used to have TT almost every night  (Tea Time) in Nasi Kandar Istimwa as our base-camp.  Day by day i spent with GYP and i felt my skill on photography was so improved.  I was so lucky that i had a chance to meet GYP. Big Thanks to Jamie Koncept, Adam Luba, Kaget, Akmal,  Kimi, Rul, Alif-Ridzuan, Din, Saiful,  Harith, Acap, bang ai, Emmet, camel, Nisa, Melanie, Maya, Shishi, Pija, Azira, and all new members ! you did give me the meaning of LIFE !

I missed you already guys.. and i hope i'll see you soon..

Here are the random memorable photos i took for one of them..  sorry for not having all your photos guys. :(